THG: Retrieval: 11: New Digs

[amichan]

 

Is that someone walking? I'm vaguely awake but I don't look up at first because I want to assess.

“Peeta?” the query is nervous, but the voice is familiar, female. Safe. Internal monologue assures me. I'm safe. Thirteen. Safe? Prim. Safe, “What did you do?”

It must look strange to her. I'm not on the bed. I couldn't sleep. I tossed. I turned. The bed was uncomfortable. I took myself off it. I tried lying on the ground. I couldn't get comfortable there. I wound up threading my arms through the bars on the bed and sitting up. I finally fell asleep, facing the door in case someone came in. So, I would hear. So, I could prepare, or some part of me could, anyway, I suppose. In case it wasn't Prim, as promised; because it might all be wrong.

It might still be wrong.

Wrong.

I look up slowly.

It's Prim. It's Prim when I close my eyes and open them again. I un-thread my arms slowly. She kneels down by my side.

“What were you doing?” she asks, taking each arm in turn and inspecting them.

“I couldn't sleep.”

She sits back on her heels looking thoughtful, “Well, let's get you some breakfast then. Do you want to wash up first? I can bring a little water in as well.”

“Okay.”

She stands up and goes to the door wheeling out the cart that's by it.

I pull myself up using the bed and walk around the room again. There's the window that's not a window. That's where they show the stupid videos. There's the walls and a couple of cabinets and drawers. I'm debating whether I should try to open the drawer when Prim comes back in with a little cart again, a small bowl of water, a small towel and a bowl of the porridge/gruel and a slice of something that's supposed to be bread.

Right. No spoons in this room.

Spoon. Ear.

I shudder.

“They say we might have a little bit of fruit soon, so it won't all be supplements. The greenhouse area is producing but also they should have the trains running if all goes well with Two,” Prim says.

This is the first I've heard of anything going on outside the walls of the room, “With...Two?”

Prim gives a slight smile, “What do you remember of the Districts?” she asks, “I don't want to overload you with information.”

“They—they would ask me about Seven a lot, and Eight—there was major trouble in Eight because of...” I feel my hands starting to tighten up and that redness crawling up my back, “Let's just not, right now,” I decide, “I don't...I don't...” I pick up the towel and put it in the water and ring it out, “Trains and food are good.”

“Yes,” Prim says, hastily, “Yes, they are. Let's just say a lot of the Districts are working with us now against the Capitol and Two is where the fight is at right now. How's that?”

I mop my face and the back of my neck, “That—that's good. Best of luck to them. May the odds be in their favor.” It's out before I really realize what I've said.

Prim laughs, “Good one. Eat your nutritious goop. I'll go see where Johanna is. She's officially in command of your care now. I've no idea what she said to Coin. I haven't seen her. I just got the message handed down to me from a very irritated Keller about an hour ago. “On the upside” he said “It'll save us on morphling and halozapine”. He's not completely off things. He's says he's going to be reading our, Johanna's and my reports, and checking in bi-weekly. In the mean time, if you want tonight, when I come on shift again, I can check in and give you sleep syrup, much less side effects and much less you sleeping in that painful position?”

I feel myself getting embarrassed, “It's not painful...”

She gives me a look, “Just because you're used to that sort of pain...”

I'm not sure what...

“We'll revisit that before I go off shift to attend lessons,” she says, “In the mean time eat. I have to go check where Johanna is, and I think we were going to move you one over so you can actually have a bathroom.”

 

I've eaten, cleaned myself again and washed out the bowl by the time Prim returns. Johanna is with her. She has a bag over her shoulder and the smell of...it's firewood, lingers about her.

“Hey, Blondie,” she says, “Ready to see your new digs?”

She and Prim take either arm and we walk a few paces down a faceless gray corridor under the stern and watchful eye of two guards one at each end and to a door with the number H-4 on it. I feel a beating in the back of my mouth at us being outside of the confines of the room, things might cave in on us. The H-4 door opens when Prim separates from us to put in her key card and she leads us inside. It's a similar room. Another window that is not a window and a bed, but this one has no straps, and has sheets and a pillow and a folded up blanket. There's a chair and a table and a cabinet lined up in front of the not window, and a small room to the left of us. Prim opens the door and shows the toilet, shower and sink.

“See,” she says, “No more cloths. You can bathe like a real person.”

“Are you sure?” I ask her, “I don't think I remember how.”

They both look at me for a moment.

“Was—was that a joke, Blondie?” Johanna asks after a moment, hand on her heart, “Did—did you just make a joke?” She makes a show of falling towards the bed, “Prim! Prim! Check me! I think I've died!”

“I think you're fine,” Prim rolls her eyes.

“I'm not fine,” Johanna retorts, “I'm a fucking genius. We have more proof.”

“Oh, geez,” Prim says, “I'm going to leave now. You do whatever it is you're going to do.”